Excitedly Expecting!

I must say that this is the first Blog that I have ever posted. The fact is I am very excited to share my life with those who care. You see, I have done a lot of personal reflection since I found out that I was going to be a father. I still remember the morning that my wife woke me up from my slumber with that test...she had passed! She was so excited that we had finally concieved. Not that we had been trying that long but you never know just what obsticles you may face when it comes to begining a family. We were blessed in so many ways the day that we found out we were expecting. I guess I never fully realized that at that moment when you first become a father you actually are. Until I was in 5th grade the only father figures that I had in my life had been my Grandaddy, Mr. Ben (my across the street neighbor), and Mr. Parsons who lived two doors down. The reason that I state this is to say I was raised by an incredible mom who somehow did it all but I never got to see how a father raises his own family. Being a father means being a father to both your wife in a responsibility sense and to your child. There are not many chores that I enjoy and I am pretty selfish with my time but as soon as you become pregnant there are things that your wife's body just wont allow her to do. Now I know that she still is physically able to everything that she is used to doing but the drive is just not there. Imagine coming home feeling like you are exhausted everyday. I guess thats how Sara feels. We both use to go to bed at 11:30-12:00. Now she is out by 8:30 and I just can't sleep. So when the fatigue set in fatherhood began. Granted I am not any better than the next and in fact my not be as good but I do try to help as much as I can. When your a father you have to be the leader of the pack. No not the end all be all but I think that you are truly the support unit for the family. I never got to see this growing up in my younger years and now I sure hope that I get it all right. This is new to me and to my wife but I can tell you that I am surely excited about it. Dont read anything into this but it is 3:13 pm on Saturday the 10th of January and I am sitting on my back deck grilling some pork ribs for my family Julia, Tim, Stephen, and I. All the while I have been listening to the birds chirp and feed at the feeder and I have been watching our two dogs playing in the back yard all day and the only thing that I can think of is man this is going to be cool to have a little one to watch run and play and to share my life with. I was very blessed growing up to have the amazing family that I had to support and nurture me a nd help me grow. I hope that I can get this father hood thing right and I know that I will. More importantly though I want nothing but the best for my family and I am truly blessed to have the opportunity to be the father that I never had early on in my life. Children truly are God's gift! Well its time to baste some ribs and stoke my fire but I will be back to write again!